It has been a long time since I've written a blog post. I don't really have an excuse other than I've been so stressed out about writing and job applications that I felt focusing any attention on the blog wouldn't be productive. I came to a realization today, however, that I want to share with you all.
Writing is an organic process.
Next time I create a blog post, I will do it from my apartment in Paris... but I get ahead of myself as I haven't written this post yet.
I'm leaving for a 5 week research trip to Europe on Sunday (less than 48 hours away), and I beg you to not let me travel in the middle of the semester again. This is honestly the most stressful trip I've ever taken, and it is by no means the longest. I'm not packed, I have a list with 15 items on it (including "pack" and "blog post") and I have a day to do it. It will get done but I'm stressed.
I had planned on posting about juggling work, school, committees, and significant others when my computer got a virus and now all that has changed.
First, I want to say that I didn’t quite make my deadline from last week. I tried very hard, but it seems that writing a dissertation takes a while, even when you know what you want to say. I did make some of it, just not all. Things aren’t quite working out the way I had planned but I am quite flexible and always have schemes.
Ok, back to my computer.
Deadlines, in general, terrify me.
I don't know how most advisers deal with deadlines for their students, but my adviser doesn't have a set plan for every student. At some point after she meets them, she decides who needs more guidance, and who can be left to their own devices. For the former she tends to give deadlines for projects, or parts of projects; for the latter she lets them come up with their own deadlines, and usually it is for a finished draft of said project.
I fall into the latter category.
As I'm sure you all know, we are currently in the midst of "Winter Break." I think, in general, students have a visceral reaction to the idea of a break. It is a time when we can kick back, relax, and watch judge shows all day... until the second day when we realize that we are grad students and we don't get a break. So what does a break really mean to us as grad students (especially in the humanities and social sciences)?
After three and a half years of graduate school, I can now see the end.
I had a meeting with my Ph.D. advising committee this week, and the verdict from that meeting was everything I ever dreamed it would be. They asked me to write one more paper for publication, summarizing my entire research, and then expand that into my dissertation.